Ok so today was the carowinds trips and may i say that it was very lovely.  it wasnt like "oh my gosh i would trade anything in this world to relive this day" but definitely a day i will surely never forget.  It was today that I seriously realized just how much i am going to miss the people that have surrounded me everyday for the past 4 years in my classes.  I have grown so comfortable around you guys that I am afraid to grow accustom to anyone else.  I dont want to grow accustom to anyone else.  I like my friends.  But life continues.  And so it was today that i decided to start a list of my favorite characteristics of my IB friends.  These go in no particular order, I am just going to include these characteristics as I am reminded of them.  So if you are not first, dont think you are my second favorite (altho you prob are).  But i just wanted to say that i really did enjoy Carowinds with everyone.  I think my favorite part was riding the rides with steven and hayes and just listening to Hayes scream like a gay faggot and hearing steven laffing at hayes b/c hayes sounded so freakin gay.  Man that was great.  It is these little moments that make high school seem so great.  I am so thankful for everyone, regardless of whether or not i like everyone, every person has helped me somewhere along the way become who I am suppose to be.  Ok so tonite the first person I chose to write about is Chris Moody:

Why I love Chris Moody: more than anyone i know, chris understands people.  Chris has this intellelect that just makes me want to look inside his head to see what he is thinking.  I am just sorry i did not know he possessed such intelligence until just recently.  Chris i am sorry i missed out on knowing you all these years. I seriously feel like I have missed out on something great!  I love the way Chris has this great smile that makes me want to smile too.  I also love the way Chris seems to be so nonchalent and here he is going to Cal Tech. i am so glad he is not one of those people who gets into this awesome school and everyone thinks he doesnt deserve it.  Some people get into great schools and people are like "wait, they dont deserve it!" but chris, oh yes, he deserves it.  Ok that is all for  tonite. My eyelids are getting wayy heavy. nite all. 

Xanga

Woah so this is what it is like to have a xanga website. It is like way exciting. I feel as if my life has new meaning.  Ok so the whole reason I wanted to get one of these things was to just display my thoughts so that more people could see what was going on in my seriously kinky head. hehe. So like ok I seriously have a question.  Why is it that people do not understand that we have like less than 3 weeks left of life as we know it.  Not that i am not way psyched about getting out of school, but i dont understand why some people dont realize that this is it. Like hand in your punch card please, the cat is in the bag, the nails are being nailed into the coffin finished.  This is it.  Never again will the most important people of at least the past 4 years of our life be in our first block asking us how late we stayed up the nite before doing whatever piece of crap project was due that day.  No more having the security of walking into our school knowing that we have tons of friends around us.  No more people knowing that we are due respect b/c we are IB kids. None of this stuff matters anymore.  It is high school and high school doesnt matter in college.  You know the feeling you get when you know everything is about to change and you just want to hold onto it but every single second that passes you just lose more and more of your grip?  Yeah I am feeling it.  I just wanted to write all this just to let you guys know that we should make the most of these next few weeks.  Not like oh "let's all get wasted and get preg up" but like lets be who we should have been the past four years so that maybe one person will remember us the way we should have been.  If you havent been a good friend to someone, do it now so that they will remember that although you may have been slack for 4 years or however long, you at least tried in the end.  And for those people who are having trouble making the right decisions, you know who you are, just remember that these last couple of weeks are going to be the ones that determine how people remember you.  Dont throw away friendships for like 3 weeks, even if those friendships could have lasted a lifetime if only you would have been a little more wise and a little less stupid.  That is all i am trying to say.  Stop being stupid.  This is it.  Become who you are suppose to be.  If you havent been who you are suppose to be for the past four years, do it now.  It is not too late.  Until more thoughts...